Then & now

What used to be the accomodation of the information in my mind, has changed
the former accomodation, is not there anymore...
There is something else, something different.
Many categories that used to exist, without being really aware of them, just there, judging me, myself, the others... have ceased to exist. Happy to leave them there, on the bullshit line that I have drawn...

I shall confess. I have my life, my death, the bullshit and the good shit. I have my life close, really close and thankfull, mindfull, open, "the more I see the less I know, the more I want to let it go....", I have my death close, really close, reminding me of my short time here, this certainty allows me to be even more present... because things can change in the blink of an eye... I like to keep the good shit close, close to my heart, to my mind, the good information always gives me motivation and huge smiles, huge emotions... As for the bullshit... its not that I have a bullshit alarm... if any of it goes beyond the safety line I have drawn... I just gently push it or throw it beyond the line. Feels so easy...

Hoping, expecting, dreaming...

That's what my life is up to most of the time.

Because there is so much more than this...